Recently, I have had the honor of witnessing a friend navigate an “on again off again”, difficult and at moments immobilizing illness. It has not been easy for her or for her friends, as the diagnoses have been incorrect and or incomplete at times. Yet her constant attitude of surrender to the humanness that connects us all, the care of a universe that will go out of its way to align with her/our sense of possibility despite appearances, and her endurance and patience through the touch and go experiences of modern medicine allowed her to receive the care that she has needed to continue feeling well. Returning to her writing and sharing, she relates that the through line in her experience is opening herself up to possibility and aligning constantly with the divinity within, which expresses as compassion and love as feeling states shared immutably.
Reading her words evokes the medicine of the truth of the awareness of love, lived. The graces and openings, alignments and resolutions that she witnessed are like a blueprint. I found myself returning to moments of my life where I felt like I was in the trenches, and every grace, improvement, apparent setback or healing, and the eventual release of the problem or problems followed resonant contours: the gratitude for the medical care, the humbleness in the face of something that was experienced as “bigger than me”, the going forward into the unknown with faith and optimism, gratitude to those moments where the clouds parted, the phone rang, or the receiver picked up, the letter was mailed or received, the prayer answered, the setback accepted, the appointment opened, the procedure worked or led to a new discovery, the care and flowers and the moments of respite and peace that undergird. These are all familiar contours.
Although I would not consciously choose for my friend to endure painful experiences, or myself for that matter, it is also apparent that the opportunities to connect so deeply within and to come out the other side more grateful, loving, humble, serene and aligned are what are unheralded gifts of experience when we embrace the possible. To offer gratitude to these experiences is about the ability to see with unusual sight ~ a sight that could be experienced as vision. A google dictionary definition of vision reads “2 : the act or power of seeing : sight.”
This definition using the wording “act” and “power” resonate well with my friend’s observation of her “aligning with possibility” moment to moment. Is there any greater act, any greater power? This, then, is a strength that is filled with trust. From what I can read in her account, it is heart full of trust.
I can think of no greater Valentine’s wish, and I extend it to you, dear reader, and the all, ever, which is right now.