There comes a time for each of us when we experience the painful exile of illness. Even if it is a common-head cold, you are treating yourself on multiple fronts: the sinus pressure or leaky eyes, the fatigue or sleeplessness can represent the physicals. The mentals (“physicals” and “mentals” are short hand in homeopathic term for symptoms that are concurrent in an illness) include feeling insecure or vulnerable, sad and lonely.
Actually, I am not sure which is worse, the physical discomfort, or the feeling of being alone on a journey not of your choosing. For no matter how conscientious we may be that we are creating the life we are participating in through vibrational offering and intent, and are doing so moment to moment, there is always the opportunity in this learning environment for blind spots or even regret and disappointment at our agreement – no matter at what level of consciousness, or unconsciousness – to participate in illness.
From an expanded view, illness serves many purposes. I have a dear friend who is utilizing an illness to “remap” her body in the vein of Dr. Joe Dispenza’s work.
Just last night, I had a dream of choosing a horse to ride at a fun horseback riding experience. I volunteered to go forward with a group who preferred working with horses that have fur which is sensitive to the skin (I had inadvertently worn shorts instead of the recommended jean and boot attire). Because the room was dark, I chose a soft “dark horse” next to me that had an affinity for me, you could say. After the choice was made, the animal morphed into a beast with a human head (from my daughter’s current animation show) – “dark horse” indeed! I was encouraged to let this animal carry me and off we went. It turned out that the human head was a complaint addict and looked for excuses to leave the pack. Later, after a rest stop where I decided we were not compatible and made my complaint known to a watcher/handler, a visage of the beast appeared on my image screen – much like a cow’s anatomy in 2D would be available to peruse at a meat market with sectioned off various cuts of meat (et. al. ribs, rump, sirloin. . .) The beast’s sections, though, were being remapped to allow for different qualities to overlap the anatomy. Like where the low back was pictured, the words “charity” and “loving kindness” were placed. Other qualities remapping the beast included “caring”, “understanding”, “patience”, “love”, “freedom”, and so on.
Is this dream pointing to the purpose of my illness? Am I remapping my body which was able to speak with me in the land of dreams, offering me advice, such as “you are too heavy”, “I am looking for a lighter experience”, and “I can’t carry this load”?
What heaviness or load am I asking my body to bear? What is the lighter experience it is requesting of me?
I feel that the qualities in the remapping point the way, and the way feels very feminine. My personality likes action and progress, forward motion and “striking out”. Yet it needs to be balanced with so much patience and loving-kindness.
To be honest, I don’t know how to find the balance right now. I long to contribute and “make waves” with my one gorgeous wave-like life. And yet, my body is asking for some tender loving care.
Doing both is certainly not impossible, or even difficult. So wherefore the resistance? How can I make this common sense, common to ME? What gets in the way? Why do I feel like I am running on three cylinders when I am more aligned than I’ve ever been – at least it feels that way to me! Isn’t that a sign for “Green light go?”
Instead, I’ve chosen exile, for the time being. I’ve chosen to focus on the yin aspects of my experience and to make peace with my loneliness in doing so. It comes to me that this is a necessary part of regeneration – the coming to terms with the exile of illness and then coming to terms with the shifts that need to be made to support health, going forward.
But for now, I wait, I bless my exile, and I share it with you in the hopes that it brings comfort, knowing, support and freedom to your “down” times.
One practice that I am able to reach at this moment, after acceptance, is that of blessing the illness and asking that it relieve the fear, pain and illness of those who are experiencing those states any where the world over. This act is really powerful because it exchanges the loneliness and self pity of feeling sick for the healing balms of generosity and awareness that you are not, nor will ever be, alone. Extending this reality through this intention to all of humanity enlarges the spirit. A link to more information on this practice can be found here: https://www.tarabrach.com/articles-interviews/mindful-prayer/
This is how my mind works – or, rather, how I’ve trained my mind to work: I think of a question, something I want to know, and then I expect my answers to come, in time. Sometimes I am conscious of the question and even write it down. At other times, the question is barely formed and at the periphery of my consciousness when answers arrive and bring whole insight to the forefront. A magical ingredient in this endeavor is trust. A sense that I will receive what I’ve asked for. Yesterday I immersed myself in the work of Michael Newton, who writes about his research with trance patients who have been regressed to past lives as well as the Life between lives that we experience with our soul group and guides and various dimensional beings in, well, various dimensional areas, such as for rest, healing, life-review, study, meeting soul mates, consulting a Council of Elders . . .
You get the picture. I was beginning to resonate with all of these dimensions and wanted to feel the joy of reconnecting with all that I AM beyond the veil.
For example, I asked myself what it would be like to see and speak with my guides and soul-group members. I wanted a face to face visit with a Council of Elders. I posed that these queries be actuated in my dream-time and that I would be able to remember and acknowledge that this has been so upon awakening.
You may notice that the photo chosen for this entry is of a colorless office with a grey-haired man smoking a cigar.
Yup. That represents a portion of my revelation. To be blunt, the cigar came first (!).
In waking life, I am not particularly interested in cigars, I practice singing and don’t enjoy breathing in smoke. Occasional incense is welcome, yet in the dream, that cigar looked like a piece of heaven to me. The owner of it turned out to be a grey haired suit who was not particularly thrilled to see us (who is the us? Me and some friends who wanted to see how this was all going to “go down”). This, “oh, you” attitude contrasted deeply with the idea I had from my reading and research of a benevolent and loving council of elders welcoming me into their wise and ethereally loving circle.
A roomy but grey executive office with a taciturn boss who wasn’t interested in a visit. hmmm.
Maybe I didn’t really need the answer to my question to look like I believed I wanted.
The subtle hilarity that undergirded this interaction was born of playing with expectations. What did I expect? I hear myself saying. There was no lack of depth in the experience I designed and crafted to give me a piece of the Life between Lives action. I like adventurous experiences, so hypnotic regression to life between life dimensions sounded fun. Did I need it? Probably not. I got what I truly needed, which is the realization that I don’t need anything. Anytime I want, I can be the big Kahoon smoking the exquisite cigar behind the desk in an executive office. It is not more glamorous than what is happening here, in Earth, and perhaps, besides the perk of exquisite cigars, here is “Where it is AT!” Sovereignty is Key.
Yes, that is the precise message that I heard “HERE is where it is at” – the earth plane. Also, the phrase “close, but no cigar” comes to mind, because I may be off task asking for spiritual assignations. Why? seems to be the underlying question. What is my motivation? To enhance my status? To know more? Why?
Turning to the other request, that of being with my soul group. I was led to an enclosure with many colleagues. All were busy with their current work and didn’t have great interest in my query ~ yet we are all allowed to assist with the integrity of a colleagues current assignment, which we did to great effect. Afterwards, as celebration, a magnificent three dimensional painting was unveiled. It was a mixture of mists with blues, purples and pinks and you could enter it and feel its textures and essences. There were tiny dot focal points of luminosity in black and white, as well. The overall feel was that of an exquisite and ever-changing tapestry with threads that were more like points of light or interest, constantly interweaving and effecting one another. The cloud or mist like texture belied the absolute strength of the “knowing” of this art work. The self-knowledge of it’s absolute being. This comes to me as an artwork that my soul group is weaving as an offering to the whole. Emperor and empresses we are aware we are. Focused, clear, deft, precise and regal in all of our work. Though I did not stay long, the group had a loving yet firm feel of “you don’t need the reassurances you seek. We have your back, as you have ours, always.” Yet there was a great joy at the unveiling of our combined project. Awe and humility mixed in, as well as pride.
The combination of these two visages leaves an imprint of soul satisfaction. My desire for reassurance, contact, and adventure morphed to “expect the unexpected”, “don’t underestimate yourself” , and “stop asking for help, we all (including you, have more important things to do!”. All of this was communicated with a dry yet playful humor without any judgement whatsoever. Adventure? Check!
Now to bring my health up to speed by having patience during my head cold and belly pains phase. And to find a MD I can comfortably talk to.
Dream time is so rich, so archetypal and such a common denominator. We are all visionaries and prophets with witness to our wholeness. Untapped resources abound. Let’s put those resources on ready-tap and get high on life’s wisdom!
My dreams are not personal, and their messages are universal, so why not use them as a template for writing and reflection here?
I can think of no reason why not.
Doing so is like being coming adept in metallurgy – extracting the gold from the surrounding dross through the fires of insight.
There is no mistake here. Dreamtimes are full of possibilities and probabilities, and they afford the ability to connect the dots in the present “waking” moment in away that is symbolic, it is archetypal, and it has the ability to ground you in a reality that is free from fear. You are the Master here, you are the alchemist. You are free and unafraid, and able to envision.
Perhaps this is meant by being woke. In the modern cultural terms, it is a way of indicating that you have come to an understanding and appreciation of angles and perceptions and movements of history and change in a way that allows you to appreciate where other people are coming from.
Being woke in spiritual terms is coming to terms with the realization you ARE the other person. It seems weighty and fraught, but that is because we think are projections are real, when projections are here as a mechanism for us to realize that we are projecting!
We are all whole fragments of the whole – likened, literally, to holography. David Darling describes holography as such
Holography is a system of recording light or other waves on a photographic plate or other medium in such a way as to allow a three-dimensional reconstruction of the scene giving rise to the waves, in which the observer can actually see around objects by moving his or her head.
It physicalizes LIGHT Waves! The implications is that we are entangled in a quantum level and yet we can pretend that we aren’t to know that we are! (Turn our head and look around!)
Dreams cut to this chase. As the “Royal Road to the unconscious” (attributed to Freud and his student Jung) they represent factions of the whole. The whole becomes fractured so we can study the different light waves. It is akin to an engineer who is motivated to take things apart in order to understand. To deconstruct in order to construct. This strikes me as miraculous.
My dream images last night included my going into schooled environments and witnessing what others are doing to bring forth vibrational awareness and freedom of movement as multidimensional being. The setting was (my) elementary school – a rich place for the landscape of the individual and collective psyche. There was an adept counselor/body worker who was introducing bio photons through the capacity of visual light, allowing the movement of light within plants and crystals to be evident. She was unpacking these lit up stones, and her office was spectacular. It was dimly lit and had a table where the student could lay to be immersed in these frequencies. The fact that they could be visualized leant the credibility of “seeing is believing”. This was magic, alchemy and a real “head start” education on the basic elements of waves as a mutual foundation with particles in constructing reality (observe, surrender and allow, look and see then change focus). The element alive here was “feeling is believing.”
There were other rooms in the school where it was perpetually Halloween in this way: archetypal costumes were available for the children to try on and play with. There were many costumes in many sizes for all the children to get to know different aspects of energy with which to play. There was a sense that many adults were returning to this classroom to educate and be with the energy of the children as they explored. The element present here is “Trying on is knowing”.
There was a place for counselors to gather to allow those who needed to express anger and grief to have a time out of curriculum to experience these states. To be witnessed in the passage of these states without any need to rush through them, deny them, or ask them to “behave” or be anything other then what they are: energy. The element present here is “All is welcome, allowed, important and seen”.
There was a music room which had many offshoots. Here many intermediate students were coming to grips with creating vibration intentionally. This was also a fluid place. Many guardians abounded here to make sure the education was “pure”, and yet they got in the way of a certain spontaneity and healthy chaos – showing that the structures in place needed some redress. Not exactly “a dressing down”, but akin to an “about face” – a need to “face the music” of how there is an element of child like expertise missing here. This may be personal as I grapple with allowing my voice and music to be a complete expression of my spirit. The feeling I get is “don’t throw the baby out with the bathwater.” There are things to be gained from adult training and a child-like mastery. These musings took place within what was a request for sharing my music (in the dream).
Although I have a Master in Music, I am learning to become an amateur again (for the love of it!) since the education process sometimes interfered with the fact that you are actually a healer before a musician!
We are all human before we are anything else: soul’s and spirits before we come to incarnate ~ children before we do “adulting” ~ and if it is true that we do have 12 strands of DNA as opposed to the more generic two-strand that is our apparent genetic endowment (for whatever reason), then we are 12 strands (think guitar) before we are 2!!!
What rich music we are capable of. So many colors to endow with love.
What is love in this case? It is without a case. It is free to roam. “Love thine enemies” is seeing that even those with whom you have a problem need to eat.
“On the highest throne in the world, we still sit only on our own bottom.” ― Michel de Montaigne
And I will, so to speak, “bottom-out” my post, here ~ *smile*
Why do popular songs extol “The Children are our future” and “let the children lead the way?”
Why is the image of Jesus welcoming the children, saying “Let them come to me” and “unless you become like a little child, you will not enter the Kingdom” ~ in so many words ~ so popular?
Children, childhood, being child-like and so forth – these people, life stages, states of being, upset the status quo. Children are unschooled in the fear-based beliefs we teach them, so they are powerful. They crush our perceptions and defenses and wring us out to dry with their indelible ways.
They are so real with their struggle to come to terms with responsibility, and they play all the games in the book!
Remind you of anyone?
Such strong mirrors, and we miss it entirely because we are trained to be so very focused on survival. And, it is really hard to raise kids when you are steeped in beliefs, because their presence challenges those beliefs foundations. Sometimes kids are irrationally fearful. We can understand that, too. It is age appropriate. Just like our fearful species is going through an age appropriate adolescence while learning how to become sovereign and self-responsible again.
To me, being child-like is being honest to myself about how I feel. Feelings and emotions are clues, and when we shut them off, we have no means with which to inquire. Self-inquiry is the seat of the Soul’s magic. In this realm, we are available to everything we have ever experienced or will experience. We step out of time to take in time’s expanse, and put our self in the proverbial “rock and a hard place”. This is where kids are constantly. They are crushed, as definite personalities, by the present moment. Their staying fluid to their own possibilities makes the rock and “a hard place” seem like a holiday.
Meditation is one way that we return to this mindset.
We voluntarily take away physical movement and sensual movement (sometimes by using the senses and physical movement!). They are no longer haphazard and outgoing/purposeless. They come within the reign and rein of the indwelling spirit of wholeness again, which is play! It is play because it plays with energy, plays with memory, plays with attachment and perception, and plays at playing. This place is so holy, and it is the purview of our children. It is childlike because there is a surrender to feeling that is anchored in presence. What could be more therapeutic?
Optimism and regeneration abound in children. This is why we claim they are resilient. Yet, they are a mirror for our own ability to allow, regenerate, remain fluid and optimize the moment. They need our structure, stability and care, and we need their playfulness, spontaneity and ability to forgive. The wise child is the result. It is an archetype that is available when we remember – bring the members of our self back together – and this is no easy task, at times. But hey, since we are playing with time here, let’s not forget that there are moments of ease or rest, and moments of discomfort because we are learning to dwell in the rock and hard place without fear and without a care in the world!
Voice of Presence Interview with Kathryn Hart Teixeira
I: How did you come upon the name “Voice of Presence” for your nomiker?
KHT: Upon hearing one of my compositions – It was a composition commissioned by a friend – a woman I know called my singing “Voice of Presence”. It stuck!
I: What does it mean?
KHT: Well, this woman was responding to her impressions, so I would have to ask her – but to me? Presence is the antidote to fear. I have understood my voice to be a conduit for presence – as all music is – and I’ve dedicated my life to understanding how to feel my own presence and communicate.
I: I appreciate that.
KHT: yeah, thank you!
I: Could you tell us a little about your journey to using your voice in the way that you do, as Presence?
KHT: yeah, well, those moments of fear – the ones that knock you to the ground – those are moments I have had to listen carefully to. The edict of the rock-bottom moments of my life have been “never again”.
I: Could you say more about that?
KHT: Not really. It’s pretty self-explanatory! On the other hand, there seems to be a great sense of adventure to living life that I tapped into when growing up that never fully went away – no matter what it seemed I needed to respond to in life. I don’t think it goes away for anyone – it just gets covered over.
I: Why do you think that is?
KHT: The same reason it gets uncovered! Adventure.
I: What do you mean?
KHT: I tend to take a wide-angle approach to living. Especially since hitting middle-age. There isn’t much I haven’t seen, and reason and intuition tell me that we have many chances to incarnate and play all sorts of roles to our satisfaction. All of which ultimately help us to awaken to our immortal reality – the reality that we are Divine.
I: So you believe we are all Divine?
KHT: Look around you, everyone is evolving constantly, creating realities to experience and discard, and adapting to the self-created changes. What is there but the self? No matter what you feel about the experiment of humanity, it is creative. Creative means of the Creator. We are all learning we are the Creator through our experiencing our creations!
I: Oh. Okay.
KHT: It is not necessary to Believe. There is only one field from which to create all thoughts, feelings, actions and so on. The unifying field is no longer a theory. We are entangled on a quantum level – showing there is no space, you have no time. This is all a game of the mind.
I: How does this relate to your singing and meditations?
KHT: don’t forget I am adding “Heart to Heart” sessions!
I: OH yes, Katie “Hart” Teixeira.
KHT: You got it! Well, I was given the gift of music and sound – so it is naturally an avenue I have pursued. It brings me to peace, calm and joy, and sharing my gifts in the name of those states brings me a lot of joy. And I think Joy is contagious!
I: Yes, it is. Thank you for sharing your gifts. How has the pandemic affected your life as Voice of Presence?
KHT: It has accelerated, for sure. You tube videos have been a lot of fun to create and share, and the folks that order Soundings and Heart to Hearts have expressed appreciation for the chance to bring themselves into healing (releasing tension) and clarity.
I: What does that mean to you?
KHT: Oh, it is a great joy. It feeds creative energy and then it is like priming the pump – the more you create the more energy you feel to create and then you receive exactly what you are supposed to receive – that which is truly for you – and at the precise moment.
I: that does sound Divine.
KHT: It is. We are, because we are direct agents of unencumbered and pure, spirit, nourishing, undiluted energy, and are learning how to allow our Divinity to shine forth again. Loving the mind into its own ability to trust.
I: Where can we find out more?
KHT: I have free videos on you tube, you can subscribe there and to this blog, I offer lots of services, including Soundings, Heart to Hearts, and mini-retreats to order on my webpage.
The images in my most recent dream time had the main character redirecting the energy. The analogy is a tetra game, where blocks of varying sizes and shapes are manipulated to build the most condensed version of a building. If you place the blocks haphazardly and leave much space in between, the building towers and then folds and you do not move on to the next level.
Usually, there are many options for where the blocks can fit, and you are looking for the fit that fills the spaces available while creating future move possibilities.
We are doing this all the time in our lives – building stable structures with our energy in which we can support ourselves. It is much like being an architect and visionary as well as being able to see opportunities that have been overlooked before, and it involves overseeing the thread-line that all is divine, and there is opportunity for mastery but no fear of mistakes – unless you consider that destructive energy simply means creating space to go again.
The energy it takes to look fluidly at relationships in the social emotional realm is often the purview of dreamtime. Allowing our dreams to filter thru’ and come to our conscious awareness may allow for a more complete fitting of our energies within ourselves, creating stable structures which we can extend, then, through understanding.
The stability is the knowledge that everything is in a space of possibility. The quantum field states that everything is made up of waves until it is observed or measured, upon which moment it becomes a particle. Releasing the need to know why things or people act as they do allows for this flow state – possible outcomes can be allowed through the discretion of focused thought (coherent light) until something more or less “clicks” as the best of many options, in so many words.
“That could be interesting”, is the verbiage that may attend this realization. It may show you space, time, ideas, creativity, assurance and guidance where before there was none. Holding a space of possibility in life is akin to letting a complete picture come forward, without knowing the details, yet feeling them. The intention to know the I AM spirit as an olive branch, in other words, trusting the very highest in possible outcomes for all involved without attachment whatsoever to what that may or may not look like allows for the well-spring of intuition and inspiration to lead the way. It feels good, and there is no contradiction in that because beliefs no longer have a role in this way of being. There is no way that “things should be”, and thinking so is the fodder for the kind of laughter that is born of great compassion and truth. You know yourself as creator of your experience, because nothing actually exists until you say so!
The gifts that were entrusted to me, by me, this incarnation feel overwhelmingly obvious now.
The beauty of seeing my life as a gift is that it feels so real. It cuts to the chase – to the Heart – and then touches everything and every body where “they” are at.
What are these gifts?
It seems pithy, but many gifts are, on first glance, difficulties.
The gift of mental illness.
This is not an easy thing to talk about. I don’t enjoy that I take medication. Yet it is a reality that I share with millions of folks, and it is something that has provided me with so much insight.
Undoing depression and anxiety has allowed me to do what seems impossible: feel safe and happy!
I had to learn how to work with perception at the level of belief. It is an awesome task and one that I am blessed to encounter.
What beliefs? That I could ever be a victim.
Because choice has always been at play in my life. I have engaged life exactly as I intended at every level of consciousness. I intended my parents and family group. They auditioned and got the parts!
I intended my personality with its proclivities and tendencies.
I intended my injuries and problems as well as healing and strengths ~
I intended my failures and embarrassments as well as all that I celebrate as ME ~
So many gifts!
They have taken me to the edge of the known world and afforded me the courage, or heart, to look into the realm of possibilities. This realm of possibilities has never led me astray. It has always given me practical, down to earth advice on what could be intended and chosen next.
How else would I have come into contact with this realm, for it exists as our spiritual reality outside of time?
Many people have out of body experiences or near death experiences and those inform them in unique ways. Being in touch with the world of imagination and dreams is another way to experience this.
The difficulties of life can force one to depend on themselves for answers in ways that leave a clear pattern of self-trust.
Trusting yourself can be hard won, since it may put you at odds with a dominant narrative, and often does.
This is where intuition and love come in. Loving the reality that many people have chosen for themselves is not the same thing as sharing it. You can share your love without expectation for your reality to be understood in return. This is magic and alchemy, and it up lifts everyone. Not needing anyone to change, including yourself, is deeply restoritive.
The intention of love of this sort calls forth the essence of things, and when Your Essence is allowed, all bets are off.
Maintaining this focus on allowing this self-love to usher forth always – in the all-inclusive way of there being nothing wrong – is the gift of the deep pain of fearful perception.
I keep thinking about Jesus, the master who took on the Christos – the knowing that he is anointed – God in the flesh.
Christos is Greek for anointing. It is often associated with Jesus as the Messiah, or Savior, and has a connotation of expectation.
We have been taught that the originating Source is separate from us. That we cannot be direct agents of this reality.
Ever try to herd cats?
People who are sovereign or self-illuminated and aware that it is a basic condition of life to realize – that there is no separation and no thing coming between the Source and the Katie or the John or the Frank – may slow down to revel in this condition. They, We, Me, You, may realize that it is not so important – getting one’s way, or seeing life through the narrative. You may find yourself enjoying just being – or doing things that make you feel alive in a way that is self-nourishing.
Slowing down, reveling, happiness for the state of being for no reason, are the gifts of allowing this Essence, this Source, to shine as the basic building block of all life. It is the absolute common denominator and because it is infinite, eternal illumination, we get to reflect back the awareness of this.
We get to tell Source “good job!” and “well-done, my good and faithful servant!” – Telling that which is in allowance of the I AM creator “well-done!” and “good-work” is a way of loving everyone where they are without saying a word.
It makes you connected and free and able to soar on the wings of eagles – to fly without lifting a finger.
There is something that wants to come thru’ today that I can’t put my finger on, because it is being explored in “real-time”.
I AM aware that there is some blockages within the area of the throat. Tensions from holding the speaking of my truth back. Or from swallowing incomplete truths. Ironically, there has been a need to be aware of certain tensions before others can be explored – before what is suppressed can become expressed – or freed.
Those tensions that enable this exploration are an acute awareness that I, as a creature of flesh, am finite. WE, as soul/spirit entities, are eternal. Further, there is really no difference between the two, because they are both light. One form, upon death, releases its various tensions and melts back into more elemental particles, or light. Our light as the vibration of soul fabric is eternally connected within a web of creation wherein we move much more fluidly through intent. There are many avenues of intent, also known as dimensions, where our spiritual identity, which is formless and without time at all, facilitates our movement by simply Being- without any agenda or intent. This area, I will call it “The Priors” (like the range of rocks in Boulder, named “The Dales”), is the finest reality that allows for all of the aforementioned activity. The Priors is our reality before manifestation, and needs not word, since it has no specific focus. The east calls it “Satchitananda” or “Truth, Consciousness and Bliss (Sat=Truth, Chit=consciousness, Ananda=Bliss) and in the west, it is known as the I AM spirit – holy spirit – whole spirit.
Why would spirit manifest itself? We would we as ONE spirit, manifest ourselves?
Have you ever played the game hide and seek when you were young? How much fun, to hide, knowing you cannot get lost, and then search for those who are not in your physical sight! The anticipation itself, of being found or of finding, made the whole game so sweet. We lit ourselves up in the playing of this game.
Manifesting is about lighting ourselves up in play! It is, in a word, FUN (from a certain perspective).
To perceive anything else is held in allowance by the avenue of the Soul, which, as extensions of the light that we are as I AM, is truly the adventurous ONE.
I go back to my throat chakra (or energy wheel). What for the stuck energy? The insight comes to me that it is because of all the lies I have swallowed in my growing up in the belief that I am separate.
Now at the level of form, which we are playing with as Souls who are manifesting Spirit (ALL ONE), we are commissioned – we commission ourselves – to enrich our spirit by experiencing the opposite (hiding and seeking – or manifesting – instead of being). The rub is when we become out of balance with these energies (such as in the physicality of dimensions like the Earth plane)
Heart to Heart? The untruths as a physicality that I swallowed were intentional within the allowance of my Soul fabric, which knows it is pure spirit. Using words here, of course, here in this apparently physicality, ME, Kathryn Hart Teixeira, are a totally unique combination of intentions from pure physical, or “worldly” perspectives, Soul fabric allowance and witnessing perspectives and undifferentiated Spirit (absolute allowance).
What a lot to enfold! What a game of hide and seek!
That is our multidimensionality. Incomplete truths, when swallowed, may eventually produce suffering.
The physical truths we are fed ~ that we are this body and that the body is somehow “impure” (read “sinful” or “incomplete” if religious and “competitive” and “cut-throat” if scientific) because of all of its inherent processes ~ if we truly knew that the body is a manifestation of spirit, and had correlations, metaphorically speaking, to the world of spirit, it could make us appreciate and slow down quite a bit more to revel and reflect on just how very much this physicality contains, experientially, for our undifferentiated nature.
Our Soul is our savior here ~ since it bears the record of our comings and goings in and out of the dimensions of manifestation. It holds our individual and collective experiences (think of the Akashic Records) so that we can have a touch stone between the world of spirit and that of form. We have an anchor ~ because we are watching and recording as we play in the fields of forgetfullness, or unconsciuosness.
Our kids our lit up in this way. Their non-judgment and ferocity of spirit as well as the way they embody the dream-state in their thinking and talking (kin to the soul) all adds up to precociousness – maturity in an immature form!
To be precocious is to act exceptionally mature at an early age.
The gifts of creation are a veritable feast in the weavings of the multiverse. Bringing a child into this dimension, speaking personally, is full of love and an ambivalence not many like to speak about. A piece of flesh that has grown in our body, has been unencumbered with survival needs and a veritable beacon of the light of the unmanifest in form.
The energy we spend in survival is a focus on a very specific dimension of apparent physicality. When our survival needs are met, we can play (and rest and dream)!
When we play, we are powerful. We recreate ourselves from the field of possibilities – no matter the pastime or hobby – time feels different when we play. Children do it naturally when their needs are met.
Adults do it naturally when their needs our met.
Yet, we have to unschool ourselves from the untruths that keep us married to survival as a means of living. Do we need to get back to the Garden of E.din (spelling from the translation of clay Sumerian tablets by scholars such as Zecharia Sitchen)?
Arguably yes and no.
The Garden of Eden is where we took upon ourselves the responsibility of procreation. We became like gods – able to reproduce in our image and able to look upon cause and effect in a very intimate way – through our own responsibility to what we have created.
The Garden of E.Din is also where we forged a relationship with our progenitors and all of those that came before. We became, in some ways, capable of – in our physical forms – acquiring a Soul, wherein we could become aware of our intentions as spirit. We became endowed with the ultimate gift of self-awareness. We ARE the I AM. The Godhead.
Once the gods of old (see the bible and the Sumerian tablets of ancient civilization and the echoes of those stories in mythology, oral history, fairy tales and in the activity or archetypes and patterns in our daily living as individuals in family units) saw in us a mirror of themselves, with the same capacities, we could no longer be controlled. Our species even became sexually attractive to said gods, and the DNA became even more tightly mingled than in our seeding and hybridization as chromosomal entities.
Once we can no longer be controlled, we are expelled.
It is an inherent biological process in some ways: when a finger cannot absorb a splinter, it begins to expel it. When a bird is about to fledge, it needs to begin searching for its own food – to become self-sufficient – expel itself or be expelled from the nest.
It has its counterpoint in family units, religions and schools, in our governments and in the social contract with our peers and/or culture.
All manners of dominion are proposed by those who would retain control. It can be broadly described as propoganda and wee children are somewhat immune. So they live in the trinity of their whole nature: spirit, soul, body.
Our propaganda tells us that these three identities are distinct properties under the jurisdiction of some “other” in the form of ideas or rumors et. al. propagated by parents and family, culture and religion, schools and government ~ our wild nature is tamed to fit as a cog into the machine.
Until the Machine takes on its own identity and sense of importance – which is our ego. It can find its equivalent in the corporation without checks and balances that utilizes resources without recourse.
Our Ego, or sense of separation from our triune nature, makes up a whole from its belief in fractured parts. It takes physical experience, as allowed by the Spirit and Soul, and compares it with other physical experiencers and draws conclusions (judgements). It forgets that it is made up of spirit and soul, and that it is a wave of the ocean. Ego is in a state of forgetfulness when immature and when it matures again, it becomes identified with the ocean while maintaining the wave (body). Both the ego and the unmanifest are needed to come to self-realization as a wave in the ocean – both being the same without differentiation of any way. That is why Ego is to be loved and not feared. It is made of the ocean, of the Source!
It is a natural and necessary part of our journey as Souls, yet it is treacherous, speaking in time, because it is not schooled in the checks and balances of the perspectives of Soul and Spirit – which know that we are just playing a game, or having a dream here.
It betrays in order to understand. Which is not sinful in the long-run, but in the short run it is what it is. It is the learning that Life is a multidimensional personality. Otherwise life here becomes so very narrow. And then we become cogs in the machine of agendas that place us at the merci of other slumbering folks who are playing games we may have not interest in.
That is the blessing and difficulty of coming awake. Putting all of the relative truths in a larger context so the ego can mature and we can live a harmonious life of multidimensionality. Like the little kids!
The rub, is you have to STEAL these perspectives back.
My throat chakra knows that stealing back my sovereignty is tricky because only “I” give it away. It is an act of self-forgiveness and of rejection of any other “I” as an authority – though they remain so for themselves.
The responsibility of opening up my throat chakra is that I will feel the impulse to communicate, to speak my truth, to unearth the lies, and if I don’t do it, I will wither. The choice is no longer an individual one, because in opening up, you realize you are not an individual in the way you have thought. You are Sovereign, and extending this knowledge to the All is what allows you to feel the divinity that you ARE.
As I become the divine fool again, I invite you to join me in these musings as a friend to a friend. I thank you for the honor of writing on behalf of these processes and I share the revelations as the highest form of friendship I have to offer – to wish for You for absolute Sovereignty and Freedom – and to witness and grow.